what now.

i was extremely happy but you took that happiness away like that.
i seriously don't know what to say but i'm taking a huge risk.

few seconds of happiness

mostly i give and take each day i breathe.
i mainly take happiness from people that need it.
i realize that i have taken many things in my life for granted.
i never noticed because i was too close minded.
my life has changed so much that i can't catch it.
but i am happy that my life isn't going in circles.
i'm truly happy that i get back up and know that i can.
my timing isn't always the best.
i think too much into the future my present is slipping away.
now my mind is opening up.

28/265 - tears and sticks

I am starting to notice that I'm not the person that I see myself as. Maybe everything that has happened or is happening at the moment is having a big impact on me that I wouldn't simply let it go and I would expand it to the point that it is always on my mind making me sick. I am very good at hiding my emotions but when I let my guard down I just let it all out. I seriously need a better way of venting but it's what I have right now. When I was walking I felt really at peace with myself, maybe I can be better with everything if I was alone or just care only for myself. I don't think I could deal that what makes me so weak.

Something Isn't Right

I'm a little over my head, but I don't want to stop it.
I'm happy by hiding the sad smile on my face.
I am glad that I can wake up and move on.

27/365 - Blow the dust away .

Many weeks have gone by and nothing in my life has changed too much , I am still the same person with the same goals , dream but a different pace . I kind of feel like I'm running away from something that isn't there yet I'm afraid that I don't dare move on . I try many things to do and what I want to do but I don't and it just makes me feel so useless that I do the same thing over everyday . I'm fine with doing the little things that I have been asked of but is that it ? Maybe I'm thinking too much about the things that I overdo it . Like always when I'm like this a ray of light comes my way and I follow it , I found what I need and that actually works . My life isn't getting easier and I don't want it any other way , I'm finding myself in these tough times . I'm only getting started .

Super Ok

Many things were said and done.
They are over with and have begun.
It's the beginning but it's the end at the same time.
Words were exchanged nothing but the honest truth.

I know I'm not a good person but I try my best.
I'm not faking what I feel or what I say.
But I am confused with a lot of things.
I am who I am and I know that for sure.

It's my life, and I don't want to waste it.

feeling lighter

i cut my hair and surprisely i really love it.
i'll post a picture later.
i haven't been sleeping well but it's okay.
it's not affecting me that i can't do anything else.
i just get some rest.

26/365 - Only With Time

Suffering will make you stronger, I don't know about that. Everything in life will always have different answer, different ways, different questions because nobody is alike and it's just plain different. All my problems, stuggles, fear are not the same with everyone else. It might seem like it's the same. But they will always make me stronger because I grew up never giving up, I would if I don't think I can go on but I soon to realize that I can because I have done it before many times. Others, they make think different like they are doing it for someone they love, being the lessself person they are. Every thing needs a reason. The pain that I'm dealing with is inside my heart that only few would only understand, I'm not that strong but if I have enough faith in myself I know for sure that I will become a better person once I have passed it and actually be strong to live through it. The hardest is when you can't do anything and all you do is think, makes you really depressed because when I do it I think of all the things I could be doing but I'm not. Hopefully that will change as I keep getting more stuggles and problems in my life to come.