Good

I'm feel good today , I actually got some sleep and I feel refreshed .
I'm moving out of my old house into my new house and seriously excited , but I wish Yackie was with me so we can have fun putting things where they are going to go , but she is at a concert that I didn't want to go to . Right now I'm feeling empty so I'm packing things to get my mind busy busy busy .

YOUR SHIT IS WEAK

True that , Why are people so weak ?

うまくいけば、誰かの漢字を読み取る

しない場合はどのような話は全く異なっているのだろうか頭の中でどのように考えですか？
分かったので、私は、人々には話が間違ったことを言っていることは素晴らしいし、何も私の言っていると間違っている私の頭。
WAAAAAAAAAAH ! T.T I'M REALLY SORRY DOOD !


私も難しいこの時期試してみます...:<

waking up

GOING TO START SOMETHING NEW AND FRESH
Start to think more about some things that i would usually skip and wouldn't think twice about but a lot of things has happened to me these past days and starting to see the good and the bad in people more and more and waking up, realizing that sometimes people do make mistakes and I can't judge because it happens, thanks.


TODAY I SLEPT FOR 3 HOURS<33

Sometimes I just want to give up

Your old friends, new friends, just people in general . I can't stand them when they just don't bother putting in the effort to be on the side line with you and don't bother taking an interest in you , but yet they are so selfish to only talk about themselves , I'm not really giving up , just seriously so pissed off that I don't want to hang out with anybody for awhile . I wonder if they really think about what happen or what I said to them . Of course I give in and still put up with them , just want to let go because if my friends are like this then I really wouldn't want to be friends with them because it isn't going to go anywhere

Insomnia

I'm sure that everybody has it at least one , I have had it this month so many times that I didn't sleep for 3 days , it was making me sick . I would be too stressed or even be too awake that I couldn't fall asleep no matter how many times I tried , just watch tv or even text , being online and even I would fall asleep but I didn't feel rested .,When I can't sleep , I have been designing more and more of my designs and creations
I really think that I do better when I'm wide awake and thinking alot....
"When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep, and you're never really awake."

FRANCISCO-GORMAN CREATION

Very own creations, Photography & Graphics Arts<3
I'll start doing my own when I'm out of school and working so I actually have time to focus on mine, but I have been working on some digital pictures :)

Cheap camera but very durable :D

MOVING

I'll be out of my old lovely house and into a huge and really nice/old house~ get my own studio and kitchen with 1/2 bathroom. I'll take pictures. I have so memories in my old house, things I did in that house(emilyy), pictures I took, hanging out

I'm glad that we can bring Roofus and Tom-tom :)

Ok I know now what I really want to say and won't stop what I'm thinking

I have alot of things that are in my mind and I really don't know how to tell you or even say it but it's all in my head and I wish I could just give you a piece of my pain so you would understand instead of thinking that you know what I'm feeling or even talking about, I have been through alot of crap in my life which would probably make me really unsure or weak about myself but I'm not a weak person, to cut it short. I can't express my feelings.
---日本語、私はあなたにたくさんの愛を読み取ることができますヾ(oﾟωﾟo)ﾉﾞ
Sorry I'm writing alot, trying to catch you up on my life.

Other things aren't so bad

(Remembering__) Alot of things that are bad when it comes to doing bad things or making a single little mistake , I will explain. I was about 13, It was a Sunday and it went to church that day and it was a really boring day but my mum wanted us to go play with a girl that lived around the corner, Yackie and myself and I really didn't want to, because I didn't feel like and thought she was really weird and didn't want anything to do with her. Yet my mum locked us out of the house and we went over there, didn't do much just hang around her house, all amazed and have alot of fun and learning about her. Her name was Jessica Robinson and She has been my friend for that many years and still going on, I love her so much. Now we don't really hang out much because of the things that we did or have done and our parents are keeping us away from eachother but once in awhile we talk. I cry alot when I think about her because I feel this sharp pain in my stomach and think that she needs me more then I need her, one day I hope that I will be with her again, god sometimes I really hate my parents and think what best for me, I just want her thats all. ~~~ thanks, Can't really have best friends because she is the only one


Last week, It was pouring and so windy which made my insomnia even worse and had sorta of a panic attack where I couldn't breath and my mind was full of things that I was thinking all at the same time and I couldn't slow down and everything was going so fast, I never want to feel that again, I really need that person that will slow my heart down and keep me calm.

I'm so tired of things that I use to care about but in the end , it screws me over

I'm the kind of the person to go out of my way for people regardless of who they are and what they have done to me , I'm very forgiving but for somebody just to use me and I fall for it every time then to just leave me without explaining or bother telling me , pisses me off but yet I can't stop or even move on from it leaving another hole in my heart , I wish I could just set it straight but of course I would say I'm very easy to dupe or try and control but yes I have feelings that won't change , I really wish I could change into the person that I really want to become and forget all those feelings that I'm holding on to very close to my heart even if it hurts me so much changing me cryI want to be able to look at my past and say I did not forget but I got stronger from me and I know now what I have to do and what not to do .