Love will not break your heart.

These past couple of months have changed so much for me, and my surroundings. I seriously couldn't be more happy, but I am a little sad that everything around you won't look the same ever. Love can be a beautiful but painful at the same time. And that sucks to experience. This month has been such a teary month, I haven't cried in a long time yet it is always great to shed a tear or two.

Today is the day. It is, I'm sure of it. Imma write a letter to him and actually sent it!!!

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It has been about seven months. I haven't wrote a single letter. Guess I really don't know what to write him, think I'm just scared of what he'll say. I listen to all the songs we listen together over and over, I feel bad yet I don't do anything to change that. We have been friends for six, going on seven years. I remember when we'd just sit and talk for hours. The late night texts. Our tea times. Walking around downtown, taking silly photos. And of course, reading comics in the bookstores,. I have almost a journal full of entires for him, I do love him, very much so. Maybeee its when I send them, I feel like I won't get a reply but then again he isn't the type to do such a thing as to not reply.

Time didn't wear away my feelings for you, love. Just rusted them and made them hard to find but yes, I love you.

I wonder if I'm far sighted. The further things are, the better I can see. The closer things are the more I lose sight of them.

Real Eyes. Realize. Real Lies.

There's a longing feeling in my chest to have you here with me, but you're just a stranger sleeping in your bed alone and I am a stranger not sleeping at all.

Do you realize?

Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face? Do you realize that we’re floating in space? Do you realize the sun doesn’t go down? It’s just an illusion caused by the world spinning ‘round.

Everything will be alright.

Day. By. Day. I'll. Wait. For. You. Night. By. Night.

For the next two years, the man I've been in love with for the past 6 years is leaving. I'll miss him but can't wait to see us both grow. And the romance that will came from everyday we talk, that is what I look forward to the most. I won't cry.

i gotta start blogging more. i do keep a journal. hopefully get my real feelings out. finally.