thinking too much

i'll stop once and for all.
maybe i'll stop caring.
yes that's it.

I'M SO CONFUSED...

don't worry about a thing

i will love you and love you.

i can't remember when

the times that i couldn't thing of one bad thing.
now that is all i can think about yet nothing.
i know there is always good around the corner.
maybe it's just me, that i'm not strong enough.
weak to even handle myself or others that are close.
i can't change the fact that i'm too scared to live.
of course, one day at the time and i'll be able to.
hoping that day is very close because i'm starting to lose.

same person i am

i can smile everyday.
i still cry but only to my shadow.
i can laugh like i use to.
i want to learn how to speak french.
i still enjoying longboarding.
i want to see you one more time.
i'm learning how to draw.
and every night i dream of you.

times that I thought different

never did i think that i could have my mind and thought changed so quickly that i was shocked and couldn't believe it but yes, i couldn't write for the longest time and i had no idea what to do so instead of slowly taking it day by day i just wrote still but when i got done my writing didn't sound like me at all, basically like i was lying to myself for something that wasn't there. yet i am back again and i take it one day at a time because really that is all i need and so far it has been just grand to spend just a few moments writing how i felt on something close to my heart. i honestly don't want to change what i think or how i feel about every single thing but the truth is that i will always be changing, i can't accept that fact.