Saturday, October 31, 2009
Letting go isn't easy
Your always thinking what could you have done better and how you would have done something different then what you did, but you didn't and so your regretting. It happens alot that you really don't know what to do with all those regrets expect letting it grow and it takes a toll on your everyday life, making you more mad, not enjoying your life but instead having a close mind, hard heart, hating something competely opposite of what your really hurting from. I must tell you that I have alot of regrets but I have been hurt so many timea that I have found a way that I forget it as soon I know that it's going to effect me. I don't want to be fall down by being upset or just simply mad. It's a waste of time for me, it's seriously not worth it, it's not going to get you anywhere expect your going to be walking in circles like I have been doing for a long time. It doesn't effect you but everything around you from what you say to another person or just a simple sad face. When people look at me they notice my smile but behind that smile for me is just me satifying them for I know that I'm doing that for them I don't want them to worry about me for I know that I'm weak and looking for someone to just pick me up and truly tell me what they think of me and not telling me something that they think that would make me happy when it just a big lie. I don't care if what you say might be hurtful, I always want them to be honest with me for if they can't be honest with me I'm pretty sure they can't be honest with themselves. In a way I'm helping them while helping myself, it's a neat thing when you really look and think about how people think. Letting go isn't easy but I think there is a lesson in there, just look for it.