My weekend was too good, now I smile when I think about it
Just waiting till I come back

pergi dengan kebahagiaan

I pulang ke rumah untuk berakhir pekan sejak aku pindah dan saya tinggal di kota lain yang tidak begitu jauh tapi jauh sehingga saya tidak dapat melihat siapa yang saya inginkan ketika saya ingin . Banyak hal yang terjadi dengan cara itu saya tidak berencana untuk terjadi tapi sekali lagi saya selalu menjadi hal yang buruk pada perencanaan . I senang pergi jalan itu berjalan , begitu bahagia bahwa saya benar-benar berpikir i am kuat lalu i was sebelum dan akhirnya melanjutkan hidupku dengan cinta dan banyak kepercayaan .
maaf jika anda tidak dapat mengerti , beruang dengan saya

Letting go isn't easy

Your always thinking what could you have done better and how you would have done something different then what you did, but you didn't and so your regretting. It happens alot that you really don't know what to do with all those regrets expect letting it grow and it takes a toll on your everyday life, making you more mad, not enjoying your life but instead having a close mind, hard heart, hating something competely opposite of what your really hurting from. I must tell you that I have alot of regrets but I have been hurt so many timea that I have found a way that I forget it as soon I know that it's going to effect me. I don't want to be fall down by being upset or just simply mad. It's a waste of time for me, it's seriously not worth it, it's not going to get you anywhere expect your going to be walking in circles like I have been doing for a long time. It doesn't effect you but everything around you from what you say to another person or just a simple sad face. When people look at me they notice my smile but behind that smile for me is just me satifying them for I know that I'm doing that for them I don't want them to worry about me for I know that I'm weak and looking for someone to just pick me up and truly tell me what they think of me and not telling me something that they think that would make me happy when it just a big lie. I don't care if what you say might be hurtful, I always want them to be honest with me for if they can't be honest with me I'm pretty sure they can't be honest with themselves. In a way I'm helping them while helping myself, it's a neat thing when you really look and think about how people think. Letting go isn't easy but I think there is a lesson in there, just look for it.

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22/365 - here with you, miss you

I'll be actually away from you for sometime and I truly hope that I'll be the same person but somehow more mature, becoming more like the person that I have been hoping and dreaming about. It's what I have to do for myself. Maybe you will change for the better just for yourself. Put aside what people think or what they might say about the things you do, and ask yourself are you happy? I'm struggling, I'm sick, I'm scared, I'm feeling pain that I never dream of having and yet I am happy because I truly want these emotions so I can talk more about what I feel and explain whats going on because communcation is what I have, I'll use it more. As we keep talking we will grow closer to eachother because I can just be myself and say what I truly think and say what I want to say. Of course I already promised you, and I inted to keep my word. For you.

a good turn

As I walked all over downtown Salt Lake City I really pondered what my elder brother told me and this is what he said "even if it's the simplest thing, it will be hard for you if you don't understand". I realize that I truly wanted to be open minded to everything and every part of what I see and what I want to do. So I walking and it was so loud , fast , and chaos all around me but somehow I felt really at home. I grew up in that city and I miss it dearly even though I'm already back. So I learn alot each and every day of my life to become. I don't want to fall back on something that could be easily be tooken away, I need more faith is what I truly need. I was walking down 400 South and I just looked up at the sky and it was so blue and really huge like my eyes could see everything in the sky and it brought me to tears, literally.

I never use Canon but my friend let me play with their camera, it was so amazing. I'm trying to learn about Canon now.

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