21/365 - A Distance Mirror

We really don't think about the little things in life that makes it wonderful but you also feel that other side of happiness, joy that we all feel that isn't so ecstatic so we forget until it comes back but what if it never went away? Welcome to another side of thinking too much in the middle of the night, I think way too much that I actually make myself sick. I dream, hope and think way too much that my present life is so plain that I don't enjoy the time that I'm living now. I always try and plan on how, what I'm going to do but I really don't start. I talk and talk about them all the time but I don't do anything about it. Why can't I get started, I believe it's something inside me that is stopping me that makes me think that it's not a big deal that I could go back and always change it but I realize that I can't. I'm always wasting time and I don't think about what I could be doing or what I should be doing instead of doing something meaningless. I feel like nobody understand what I'm feeling because I say it so confusing that I don't even understand what I'm talking about. It might be good afar but when you get really close it's not such a pretty sight.

please understand

i forget again and again but haven't forgotten you

I feel pretty alive at 1:45 am

still behind that pole

i don't feel like blogging that much these days
maybe it just the changing places i have put myself in
i want something new but i don't do anything about it
i keep coming back to the same thing everytime
that has stopped and finally changed something
want to tell you everything but not sure if you hear it
i need to see that smile for it keeps me going
i do it for myself, who i want to become, and my past
i keep on walking but i don't dare to look up
i sit here and you sit over there so far from us
don't know what i did but it wasn't right
i do want to listen and exactly follow my dreams
hard when you have nothing to fall back on
nothing to hear but your echo

nothing much to say anymore

When I see this little lost boy crying for his mum but I do nothing but watch his expression searching and waiting for her to come and when she does I see his face glow and nothing else matter expect for that split moment when he runs back to her embracing her with happiness . I turn back to me and what do I have to run back to ? Nothing but an empty seat.

20/356 - Something New

I'm going to learn how to sing.
I always wanted to try it but I suck.
I'm going to hard my best and sing everyday.
Then I'll slowly learn how to play guitar.
I really want to sing, and I believe I have the voice.
So I'm going to give it a shot!

i'm so happy that imma change my hair color(:

something never wronger

Of course you know it's rude to talk behind someones back.
What happen to actually going up to the person and saying it.
I think it's rude in general but we are who we are.
Some people have no manners, no modesty, and it's disgusting.
I was waiting for a friend to be done and I witnessed some people.
It was too horrible to listen, and they wanted me to join.
I didn't know what to say so instead I just walked away.
Why can't it be easy, it's that simple.