Other things aren't so bad

(Remembering__) Alot of things that are bad when it comes to doing bad things or making a single little mistake , I will explain. I was about 13, It was a Sunday and it went to church that day and it was a really boring day but my mum wanted us to go play with a girl that lived around the corner, Yackie and myself and I really didn't want to, because I didn't feel like and thought she was really weird and didn't want anything to do with her. Yet my mum locked us out of the house and we went over there, didn't do much just hang around her house, all amazed and have alot of fun and learning about her. Her name was Jessica Robinson and She has been my friend for that many years and still going on, I love her so much. Now we don't really hang out much because of the things that we did or have done and our parents are keeping us away from eachother but once in awhile we talk. I cry alot when I think about her because I feel this sharp pain in my stomach and think that she needs me more then I need her, one day I hope that I will be with her again, god sometimes I really hate my parents and think what best for me, I just want her thats all. ~~~ thanks, Can't really have best friends because she is the only one


Last week, It was pouring and so windy which made my insomnia even worse and had sorta of a panic attack where I couldn't breath and my mind was full of things that I was thinking all at the same time and I couldn't slow down and everything was going so fast, I never want to feel that again, I really need that person that will slow my heart down and keep me calm.