I'm the kind of the person to go out of my way for people regardless of who they are and what they have done to me , I'm very forgiving but for somebody just to use me and I fall for it every time then to just leave me without explaining or bother telling me , pisses me off but yet I can't stop or even move on from it leaving another hole in my heart , I wish I could just set it straight but of course I would say I'm very easy to dupe or try and control but yes I have feelings that won't change , I really wish I could change into the person that I really want to become and forget all those feelings that I'm holding on to very close to my heart even if it hurts me so much changing me cryI want to be able to look at my past and say I did not forget but I got stronger from me and I know now what I have to do and what not to do .