It's time for that moment.

I want something for myself that I never thought of before. It's not something that is expensive or anything that most people will think of but I think of it daily, I can't help but long for it. I don't know if I will ever get it, but I'll get pretty close that I will be happy for that instance second if I won't get that happiness again, I'll be happy that I got that chance of relief. It's rather depressing to think about thing that you would never think about but it's only when I'm alone and thinking of all the possible things that I could be doing, but mostly I'm thinking all of the negative things that will happen and I can't help scare myself, I wish I was stronger so I wouldn't need anybody that I can cry to, making up theses lie that won't last but will make me worse then I was before. I need this for myself right now.