day one

Imma starting writing in my journal. I haven't written in such a long time, and I miss it. 

It has been way too long.

There has been so many wonderful moments that has happened that I can't even describe and is still happening. I am truly grateful that I was born into this world, with all the bad and good that has fell into my lap. I have grown so much in the past few years, I have noticed that I am getting stronger and wiser every day. 

I am now happily married with two beautiful, precious boys. I get to spend so much time with my husband and I still can't get enough of it. We are fall in love with each other each and every day. 

I plan on writing and to do my best to get my feelings out there. I am finally happy. 

Love will not break your heart.

These past couple of months have changed so much for me, and my surroundings. I seriously couldn't be more happy, but I am a little sad that everything around you won't look the same ever. Love can be a beautiful but painful at the same time. And that sucks to experience. This month has been such a teary month, I haven't cried in a long time yet it is always great to shed a tear or two.

Today is the day. It is, I'm sure of it. Imma write a letter to him and actually sent it!!!

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It has been about seven months. I haven't wrote a single letter. Guess I really don't know what to write him, think I'm just scared of what he'll say. I listen to all the songs we listen together over and over, I feel bad yet I don't do anything to change that. We have been friends for six, going on seven years. I remember when we'd just sit and talk for hours. The late night texts. Our tea times. Walking around downtown, taking silly photos. And of course, reading comics in the bookstores,. I have almost a journal full of entires for him, I do love him, very much so. Maybeee its when I send them, I feel like I won't get a reply but then again he isn't the type to do such a thing as to not reply.

Time didn't wear away my feelings for you, love. Just rusted them and made them hard to find but yes, I love you.

I wonder if I'm far sighted. The further things are, the better I can see. The closer things are the more I lose sight of them.

Real Eyes. Realize. Real Lies.

There's a longing feeling in my chest to have you here with me, but you're just a stranger sleeping in your bed alone and I am a stranger not sleeping at all.

Do you realize?

Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face? Do you realize that we’re floating in space? Do you realize the sun doesn’t go down? It’s just an illusion caused by the world spinning ‘round.

Everything will be alright.

Day. By. Day. I'll. Wait. For. You. Night. By. Night.

For the next two years, the man I've been in love with for the past 6 years is leaving. I'll miss him but can't wait to see us both grow. And the romance that will came from everyday we talk, that is what I look forward to the most. I won't cry.

i gotta start blogging more. i do keep a journal. hopefully get my real feelings out. finally.

Hotel Song

Come in, come in
Come into my world I've got to show
Show show you
Come into my bed
I've got to know
Know know you
The porter smiles to me a smile
I've bought
With a couple of gold coins
A sign that I've been caught

Don't Lose Yourself

The moment you enter into the world of words you start falling away from that which is. The more you enter into language, the farther you are away from existence.

It’s ironic that the one person who can put a smile on your face in an instant is usually the same one who can wipe it off faster than anyone else in the world.

Insights.

No inside or outside just everything and nothing all at once arising and passing close to the earth forever building relationships that connect it all throughout time.

These days have been so amazing. Fall has came. I couldn't be more exciting. Now to take some photos.

Enough Said.

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